madamamadmanmaladaptivemannersgonenanners:
"This song kind of has an emotional tone in my life because I used to venture to downtown haunts in lower New York and spend all night until the morning dancing in the hot basement joints so expensively decor..."
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madamamadmanmaladaptivemannersgonenanners:
"This song kind of has an emotional tone in my life because I used to venture to downtown haunts in lower New York and spend all night until the morning dancing in the hot basement joints so expensively decorated and so dark and full of so many close hearted friends and I never see them anymore yet we had growing pains together. This was life without the guy I loved; it was life after him and it was very very difficult. Over the years hanging around the east village as a youngster eventually there was a brooklyn boy from a different crew who I used to see around sometime I just refused to go out with; he was in the same clan as the one that used to associate with the one I used to come out with and you know; it was too close for comfort. Even though he was brooklyn and we were from other parts. Different crew, totally foreign. I hated that moment, though; I knew he came out for the girls and I knew I could have gone out with him. I would never have said this because I don't find myself to be particularly egocentric especially these days yet I knew that night that he came out for me. And it hurt because it was the only time I ever rejected a guy like him because he - no guys like that were never worth rejecting they were our strong protectors, and beyond this so it hurt, most likely the both of us but when you are all liquored up, you just are choosing to refuse to feel anything. He reached out his hand; he offered it and I rejected it; I just didn't know otherwise at the time and I still am terrified to do something like this. I hope he's ok and isn't an a**hole to women as a contributing result. I believe they all had the same name. They all did"
